As most of you probably already know, neither my parents nor my grandparents were/are divorced so Im not exactly reporting from the lion's den. I think the mystery of divorce is what makes it so frightening for me. I know its possible to make a marriage work - Ive seen it done and understand that neither love nor luck is the deciding factor - but some part of me always wonders if Im strong enough to make mine work "no matter what".
Being married to a man who is divorced only exacerbates these insecurities. And even though I support his decision, I dont think Ill ever truly accept his reasons for doing it.
Im mad about watching their whole "thing" change over the course of the show. It bothers me because I wonder if that could be me in ten years. I think that I identified with a lot of the values they talked about on the show and wonder if I could change so much in just a few years. Could I wake up one day in five years and find that I have totally abandoned all my ideals?
My mom once told me that talking about your values is easy, living your values is harder than hard. Her advice was to keep your mouth shut and just work on being the best person (wife, mother, daughter, sister) you can be!